i just want to crawl into a ball and cry. love is something i’ll only get to experience with myself and i’ll have to be ok with that. i love me enough and until someone can match that then it’s prob not healthy for me.
at what point do you decide “let me allow this person to grow because i need to be patient” and “i’ve exhausted all efforts and this is when i’m jaded and need love that is growing”
shadow work is doing the most right now.it’s never going to stop in terms of healing but boa this one… all i can say is ‘just hold on we’re coming home’.
this has been rewarding, triggering, and at times peaceful?
i’m realizing that ppl can only go as far with you as they’ve gone with themselves . if they haven’t addressed their flaws, started their own shadow work then the distance with them is real limited. some surface level shit.
after realizing this recently, i take things less personal. especially at work. i think to myself ‘this is where they’re at and it’s completely out of my control. i can either stay and be hopeful or leave and be at peace; fulfilled’. if you haven’t addressed your triggers/traumas flaws i can’t expect you to understand how your behavior is harmful. we can only go so far with one another until you realized there is more distance to conquer with or without them. you can’t change anyone sadly..
